Why the Silence????

So many words go through my head

Half of it is never said..

For what i feel i try to hide...

Though i break down inside.....

To hurt you I never want....

It happens still..help it I can't

Wish i cud hide all my tears ...

Keep a smile on for years and years....

Wish I could hold it back,never let it run...

Tears arent my friends,they are never fun...

I choke at times suffocate...

My silence does indicate....

Never thought I would hurt you so....

I feel shattered...feel so LOW....

I know you bleed,I know you cry...

I know you wish at times to die...

Never meant it to be this way....

At times i dont know what to say...

For words at times are very few...

Keep saying "wish i knew"

Feel my love,i want you to...

I want to stay forever,to be true...

For hurt you i do now and then

Never want it to happen never again

I know its too good to be true....

Its something i wish i could do....

For My LOVE .....

Wish you could feel it,wish you could see...

You mean so much to me..

My Quest begins...

Staring at myself in the mirror at times I have looked away realizing that I am a stranger to myself...often these thoughts haunt me” Who am I? Does my presence make any difference in this world?? Won’t this world move on after I die? Loved ones might give me a tribute in tears...But they will move on eventually, wont they? And so will this world which never ceased in the first place. So why am I here?” Never have I been able to do justice to these queries.

I feel at times that the whole world revolves around me, I am the central character of this play of mammoth proportions, everything happening here is related to me in some unexplainable way....that's just my ignorance, isn’t it? After all this world has seen births and deaths before I was born...and I have a strong feeling that it will be so after me.

I know this is a quest which has been taken upon by many...the search for oneself, a look into ones own soul. I don't know where I am headed; I might stumble upon novel thoughts and redefine a few that already exist. Its here where I pause, take a moment to look at this phenomenon called “LIFE”. The experience of a life time....the search for the purpose of my life...my existence...My ASTITVA