Tuesday, December 9, 2008

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What is this? Please tell me
Why is it that I can’t be free?
A thousand needles poking through
Chains of bondage I cannot move

I wail , I cry, for help I scream
The pain’s too real, it’s not a dream
Won’t be long before my voice breaks
A few more screams that’s all It’ll take
Then I will be silenced, I will be free
For death will put an end to my misery

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Back with a bang??[:P]

Well it’s been a long time since I penned down something. I haven’t had the inspiration to put my thoughts into words. Here goes nothing…get ready for a bumpy ride people…

It’s odd you know that the first thing that comes to my mind is death. All of us have at some point in our lives come face to face with it. It is mysterious, isn’t it? It’s the great equalizer. Unlike the saying that all are equal before the law, when it comes down to death it’s true. But to those who pass away the world left behind doesn’t matter right. It’s those who are closely related to him or her who is affected the most. Imagine a friends circle wherein there is this weakest link, you could say, who is always at the receiving end of the criticism, the victim of all the personal jokes, the guy who is laughed at ,who has the reputation of being the biggest looser, he might be the only person in the group who gets your most pathetic PJ’s and throws his head back in the air laughing when the rest just sit and ponder,“why in the name of humanity did we have to go through that ?” …and you are glad that rather than criticizing you for your sense of humor the poor guy is taking the shots for appreciating your joke….
But what if the next time you crack a joke you turn your head and the realization hits you that he is no longer there? All that is left is the empty space …you freeze. You miss his company … In some way or the other when all of us are gone we will be remembered…for how long, well that’s a different issue….
Its true isn’t it that people at times don’t realize the value of something or someone unless and until it’s taken away….who will miss you?? Have you ever thought of that? I know lots of people will cry a few tears but will eventually move on…your friends your siblings, but there are a few who will miss you so much that they will keep wishing that you come back from the dead just so that they can let you know how much they love you…Parents… mom and dad…papa and mamma…what can I say about these wonderful creations. They never seem to stop loving you…you shout at them you give them attitude they still turn up with a smile on their faces, and in the case of my dad with a glass of “horlicks” in his hand. You can make the biggest mistakes of your life and still find them loving you the same. They are angels on earth … I know that their lives are short…they wont be around much longer I know that there are exceptions but I don’t want to elaborate on that…So if I die, who will miss me?? Or rather will it make anyone happy if I die?Hmmmmm...
I have been asked this question once…if you don’t have a purpose or a dream why don’t you die…well…yes practically speaking I would be doing the world, which is running out of supply of oxygen, a favour by not taking up my share and letting those who do have a purpose put it to good use. But nah am not all that good [: D] …is life really worth living?? I have heard that everybody has a destiny…a fate that is predetermined…sure…tell this to the guy who survived a war to ultimately die because a coconut fell on his head…aren’t we just kidding ourselves by blaming it on destiny and on luck? Isn’t it all in our hands…aren’t we just being lazy and not working for it hoping that out of sheer luck we will get what we want? But when we do try our best and still end up with nothing then whose fault is it…the common saying … “you were not destined to get it”. The irony….
I don’t write this blog to inspire anyone, nor to enlighten anyone…its just me….voicing my weird thoughts…so to the people who do happen to read it…bear with me…I now a few will have fallen asleep by now or will have switched to another blog…but to those who did get to this part….thanks for being patient!! So until next time…ciao!![;)]